Let me just tell you if you choose to start your day out like I did with the seven sins that Paul feared it will get pretty ugly! So proceed with caution!
What are the seven sins Paul feared?
2 Corinthians 12: 20 – For I fear, lest, when I come, I shall not find you such as I would, and that I shall be found unto you such as ye would not: lest there be debates, envyings, wraths, strifes, backbitings, whisperings, swellings, tumults.
Yesterday started out pretty innocently and then snowballed into a big, fat mess!
See my family has a personal conviction to remain accountable with each other about what we see on the Internet. That’s why we have put certain precautions in place to maintain this accountability and keep our eyes and our hearts guarded.
Some of these precautions include:
- No internet on the phone it’s password protected
- We have three filters on our computer AFO, WIPS, and Metacert.
- Oh and we turn our images off while searching the Internet. It’s very easy to do and if you need help on how to do it send me an email! This is a personal conviction because we live in such a sex driven society that seductiveness not holiness tends to be the norm.
My Sin Number One: Wrath
So when my husband called to say he had saw something provocative on his computer at work I was frustrated! I got very angry (or as my faithful King James says “wrathful”).
My Sin Number Two: Debate
My wrath immediately turned to debate as I began to drive my point into the ground with the sole purpose to make me right and him wrong. Oh and I was doing such a good job at it too! I was spewing things out of my mouth left and right about how careless he had been, about how he can’t even follow the rules he sets, and what kind of example of a Christian he is. I was ruthless, cold hearted, and callous and I didn’t care because I was winning the argument.
The more I debated the smugger I became. My words became cockier and cockier. My mouth was way past the point of no return and I was enjoying it because I was winning! Did you catch that? I was sinning and enjoying it, lingering in it because it made me feel good for the moment! That’s a hard thing to admit but it’s true!
My Sin Number Three: Strife
The sin of debate always leads to strife. To be exact, my pride, in wanting to be right and win the fight led to a big debate and that big debate led to strife in my marriage. All because I couldn’t say “apology accepted” after he said I’m sorry.
Pride. It’s ugly and I’ve mentioned before that I struggle with it. Jesus would not of debated with Danny but I did! He would of loved him and forgave him and wrapped his arms around him for confessing his sin but not me and all because of my pride! I wanted to fix with my flesh what God had already worked out in Danny’s spirit!
Strife is that terrible spirit that creates an atmosphere of anger that hangs just below the surface so that you keep fueling the fight. It makes you miserable and wreaks havoc by causing you to bicker and argue!
My Sin Number Four: Backbiting
Once you start down the path of the seven sins that Paul feared you just seem to keep going and going and the situation keeps getting worse and worse!
Next, I started to backbite Danny with the children! See it wasn’t enough that my pride took over and wanted to win the debate. Now my pride wanted not only to win the debate but to have everyone on my side too! Backbiting or tale-bearing is talking about someone in their absence — to bite them behind their back and I was guilty of that. Now you think that all this would be enough to make me stop and come to my senses but it’s not! Because out of my pride I just kept opening my mouth!
My Sin Number Five: Whispering
I got off the phone with Danny and began to talk out loud to myself about how angry I was at him! I was so angry at this point that now I was complaining to myself about the situation and getting angrier and angrier by the second! Each hateful word or thought that I spoke (even to myself at this point because no one else was willing to listen to my foolishness) was causing me to self destruct and slip further and further into this self inflicted chaos!
My Sin Number Six: Swellings
Each time I grumbled to myself I could feel the pride and anger swelling up in me! My pride has caused my actions and words to be puffed up and my responses to be harsh and cruel!
My Sin Number Seven: Tumult
Tumult is confusion and disorder and I had definitely reaped what I had sowed! I had continued to allow my pride and my will to fuel the argument. I had continued to create confusion and disorder in my marriage because I wanted my will to win the argument and not God’s will of humility and forgiveness!
I asked Danny for forgiveness last night and he was quick to forgive me and allow God’s love and mercy to show through him! I also asked God to forgive my sins and to help me die to my pride and allow his love, mercy, and forgiveness to flow through me when someone offends me. I prayed for him to help me become less of me and more of him!
Sin is a poison that if left to linger will consume us and take over us! Just one of the sins listed above is enough to sentence me straight to the pits of hell. The wages of sin is death – eternal separation from God, and rightfully so because I had broken the law and deserved the sentence given.
I am so thankful to have a Savior that loved me so much that he sent his only begotten son to die on the cross so that my sins would be forgiven. If I would lay down my pride and come to him and ask forgiveness for my sins so that I would be spared from the punishment, the sentence I deserved- hell!
To paraphrase a quote from our family friend Pastor Mike Hoggard “If hell was for a thousand years it might be bearable, because there would be an end to the torture. But it’s not! Its forever! Eternity!”
Friend if you don’t know Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior, I plead with you to cry out to God! Come to him with all your sin and ask forgiveness for breaking God’s Law! Pray and ask Christ into your life so that you can escape from the wrath to come!
Romans 10:13 – For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved.